diet days ... binge

I've been slipping and today I fell. My emotional eating culminated in a can of pringles. 90 carbs. My sugar shot to about 380 before I took insulin. The price of the binge is that right now I'm feeling overwhelming sadness and anger. It's like an angry thrashing in my head pounding to get out but not finding an exit. I imagine this is how a balloon feels right before popping or lightning feels just before striking. There is a painful tension all through my body, a bone deep electric aching everywhere at once. This is why I have to diet. This is why I can't eat what I enjoy eating.